Thank you Paradox

With so much love in the heart We stood by the ice cream cart I was lucky to have him and my beautiful babies I thought we were happy with all the huggies Fear of failure, anger at resistance to agree Why at the most crucial time someone had to pee? We had places to go and things to do Clock was ticking and there was no time to chew Deep down there was guilt But no time to spare Now I dread reading diaries of anguish and despair? I could be a better mum I could be a better wife But blamed for trauma and seen worthy of betrayal All out of contempt; are they for real ! Hurt, heartbreak, insecurity and grief Engulfed my life that was once so sweet I ran away to places out of self pity I resigned from positions, I moved my cities What surprised me most was his cognitive dance He was always right and I was always from France Thank-you paradox, I have nobody to blame Nostalgia will keep burning my flame I was saved by curiosity, wonder and awe So much beauty in nature, I saw The resentment and sadness can’t bogg me down Nature strokes my back and lifts my frown

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